Attended E's wedding yesterday evening with the forum kakis and it was fun gathering and gossipping and chit chatting. Mumsy is pregnant with her 2nd baby and it's a boy! (1st child is an angelic girl), Piggy is not with us yesterday night and she is pregnant too! The ladies at the table asked me and BC whether I am looking to our wedding next Jan. Frankly, a part of me is not looking forward to it and a part of me is.

I am not looking forward to it because there are so much logistics and planning to do and not to mention that everything is so expensive. And frankly, I already considered myself married, just that I have not wore a bridal gown and get out the of house (which is what my parents want). At the same time, I am looking forward to it not because I am excited to walk down the church aisle in my bridal gown with the choir singing at the background, but because I want to get this over and done with. This matter is hindering in my plans for other matters whether financially or mentally and I just hate it. I do not feel the least excited and looking forward that it's my wedding day but I find it more frustrating that there is alot of things that I cannot do or even plan on doing because of this stupid event!