The weather these few days is horrible....... I came out from a cold shower and I'm already sweating like mad! Doesn't gives me much motivation to go anywhere or do anything.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix is opening next month and I'm only halfway through the book. I'm targetting to finish the book before I catch the movie next month since I know that once I have watched the movie, the probability of me going back to finish the book is NIL!!!!

It's Jay's ROM last Friday and I'm really happy for him. He and Dee Dee has been through quite a bit and finally they going to tie the knot. I wish them all the best and hope that we can expect little Ashley or Zacherary to join them soon!

Attended E's wedding yesterday evening with the forum kakis and it was fun gathering and gossipping and chit chatting. Mumsy is pregnant with her 2nd baby and it's a boy! (1st child is an angelic girl), Piggy is not with us yesterday night and she is pregnant too! The ladies at the table asked me and BC whether I am looking to our wedding next Jan. Frankly, a part of me is not looking forward to it and a part of me is.

I am not looking forward to it because there are so much logistics and planning to do and not to mention that everything is so expensive. And frankly, I already considered myself married, just that I have not wore a bridal gown and get out the of house (which is what my parents want). At the same time, I am looking forward to it not because I am excited to walk down the church aisle in my bridal gown with the choir singing at the background, but because I want to get this over and done with. This matter is hindering in my plans for other matters whether financially or mentally and I just hate it. I do not feel the least excited and looking forward that it's my wedding day but I find it more frustrating that there is alot of things that I cannot do or even plan on doing because of this stupid event!

At The Beginning (By Richard Marx & Donna Lewis)

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through
Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I’ve been waiting so long
Nothing’s gonna tear us apart

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that I wanna keep going on
Love is a river, I wanna keep going
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Passion

I saw an episode of Oprah Winfrey Show and they had women coming up to the show and tell people how they were able to look MUCH younger than their actual age. Imagine a 70 year old lady who looked like in her 40s and a 40 year of lady who look not older than 30! My goodness, they definitely had not gone under the knife as they have the natural look with some wrinkles and all but still not old and wrinkled enough for people to tell their real age. When interviewed about how they maintain their youth, all of them talked about being at peace with themselves and how they are doing something that they have a passion about.

How i envy them........ they actually are able to be at peace with themselves and be engaged in something that they have passion about. How can I feel likewise???? I am not at peace with myself because I am not happy with the way I look, not happy with the money that I am earning, not happy with my lifestyle...... Is it just me that is the problem? Passion........ my passion has always been in makeup and reading, but it's just not something that I can throw down everything that I have and go for..........

How can I be at peace with myself?????? Someone enlighten me!!!!

Any idea what is this???? Hahahahaha, it's ROTI PRATA with ice cream!!!!!